I recently was watching “Geraldo at Large” and saw a segment called
“Shacking up After Breaking up” It really came to me as completely crazy. How could that ever work? I find love sometimes extremely hard for me. I live with my boyfriend and some days I can say it is complete hell. He has trained himself to not wake up to an alarm. How can you live like that? He misses work constantly and expects me to pay his rent with the money my father gives me each month. He doesn’t care that he’s in debt or at least he won’t deal with it. He signs up for classes (he goes to Wayne as well) and then his parents pay for it and he never attends and never drops. Let alone he never wakes up, I mean it. I can try to wake him up for an hour straight and I get nothing besides him yelling things at me that I can’t even understand. These things are mainly what we fight about, besides the fact that he doesn’t like my older brother or my father. He doesn’t seem to get the fact that I do things for people that I love even though they may put no effort towards me. I get these things from my mother. And he’s constantly saying “ Stop being my mother.” Yet I keep saying “You’re turning into my father.” He hates someone that he reminds me of kind of weird I think. Sometimes I do want to leave, but I know that I can’t, because in this weird relationship I still love him to death. I do feel like sometimes he’s just a child even though he is a year and half older then I. I get so frustrated but there are always those moments that make me love him more. In the show Geraldo says that couples are constantly staying together for money reasons. I guess I can see how. I know I couldn’t pay for an apartment on my own. I also know that he’s still young and can change I guess those things keep me going. I guess the effort is what love is all about.